rollin' with it [the punches that is]
thought: i think people mask insecurities with petty actions. people love to hate on others, but why? because deep down inside they have some sort of resentment for that person. whether it be they resent that person’s looks, lifestyle, personality, etc. we all have our insecurities, i included, but when someone masks their insecurity with a petty excuse, then that shows you how “real” that person is. how one minute you gonna tell me ‘congrats’ and then the next minute blow up on me?
growing up in hollis, i wasn’t a kid whose parents were barely making ends meet nor was i the kid who had to scrounge up change to go to the deli afterwards to buy candy. but my parents weren’t millionaires, their main cause was to give their children the best life possible, even if that meant sacrificing their own personal wants and needs. every year i had a new book bag, new lunchbox in tow, new hello kitty pencil case, new books & supplies, etc. It was only until the later end of high school that i started rockin’ designer totes and expanding my fashion game. and with every new item came some new hate. “oh I dont know why she has to get that bag, i dont see what the big deal is.” (Yet you are rockin’ the non-authentic replica of the same bag. You obviously DO see what the big deal is.) or my personal favorite “sorry, i have to PAY MY OWN WAY, … my parents don’t support me.” um, as fucked up as it sounds, is that really my fault?
i’ve dealt with things like that my whole life and have even connected with others who have been shunned in the same way. why do i bring this up? because i thought this deep down resentment people had towards me laid only within that context. but today i was proven wrong.
i wont get into detail with what happened (because that’ll be another long post) but i’ll leave you with this: just be wary about negative people in your life. they are always around, and it is up to you to keep the people who will only benefit you, closer.
i’m glad to say that this black cloud has moved along its way, but i won’t forget the sunshine that used to break through it from time to time.
being positive can only hold an individual up for so long. you just gotta deal with life, roll with the punches, and then move the fuck on.
& i`m out.
